I tried to change my nose ring for the first time and couldn't get it back in and now it's healed back over. For some fucked up reason, I'm crying about it, maybe cos I'm on my period and I'm just so damn stressed about my entire black hole of a life.
I feel like this stupid metal screw represented a version of myself I tried so fucking hard to be, in a phase of my life I wanted more than anything to not change. And it has changed, because everything does, and I'm giving up on this person.
I'm way too upset about this. I know I could just get it re-pierced but I know I won't. There's no point this time around. I don't get body art for decoration or out of boredom, it always means something and I feel like I've lost a part of me from the loss of this.
I'm such a fucking hormonal mess on my period jesus fucking christ.
Taking a hiatus from the internet. From everything that it's possible to take a break from.
Music : So Soon - Marianas Trench