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24 February 2012 @ 11:55 pm
Aw. My friend just drunk dialled me and now I feel like a total douche for not going x.x.
I kind of hate my weird social seclusion spurts.
Mood : sadsad
24 February 2012 @ 07:14 pm
Argh. This always happens.
I want to go to the party tonight and be social and cheer up.
But it feels like so much effort...when I could just curl up in bed.
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Mood : lethargiclethargic
01 February 2012 @ 04:43 pm
I really really suck at focussing.

At least I've finished one of my assignments...I have another one I have to do tonight but I am so easily distracted x.x
And I have to edit the shit out of my German draft and type up my Semantics crap =[ /whinewhinewhine.

Of course when I like to avoid homework I online shop...but since I have no money/am trying desperately to save money, I'm more or less online window shopping which just feels pathetic.
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Mood : lethargiclethargic
25 December 2011 @ 07:24 pm
Drinking Baileys.

Love this movie/musical so fucking much.

Viva la vie boheme.

to loving tension, no pension, to more than one dimension.

To being an us for once instead of a them.
25 December 2011 @ 05:20 pm
I'm noticing that Christmas is a hell of a lot more bearable when I just pretend like it's any other day.

Fuck though, when I have my own family I am for sure doing the whole shebang. It's gonna be like Christmas week, jam packed with every festive thing possible.

Because for now, it's a struggle to not sleep away the day.
Mood : numbnumb
13 December 2011 @ 11:35 pm
I'm dancing. And cheering.
$1000 badly needed :D
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Mood : accomplishedaccomplished
12 December 2011 @ 09:49 pm
I honestly don't remember what I used to do on the net before tumblr hahahaha.
Someone just inboxed me one of those anonymous I-love-your-blog messages and it totally made my day :3

I chair danced, I'm not afraid to admit it ahahahaha.

...I did one of my finals today and am really faltering at coming up with the will to start studying for the others.

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Mood : cheerfulcheerful
01 December 2011 @ 11:25 pm
I tried to change my nose ring for the first time and couldn't get it back in and now it's healed back over. For some fucked up reason, I'm crying about it, maybe cos I'm on my period and I'm just so damn stressed about my entire black hole of a life.

I feel like this stupid metal screw represented a version of myself I tried so fucking hard to be, in a phase of my life I wanted more than anything to not change. And it has changed, because everything does, and I'm giving up on this person.

I'm way too upset about this. I know I could just get it re-pierced but I know I won't. There's no point this time around. I don't get body art for decoration or out of boredom, it always means something and I feel like I've lost a part of me from the loss of this.

I'm such a fucking hormonal mess on my period jesus fucking christ.

Taking a hiatus from the internet. From everything that it's possible to take a break from.
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Mood : numbnumb
Music : So Soon - Marianas Trench
01 December 2011 @ 01:54 am
Everything costs money and I hate it all.

Ugh. Fucking RBC and paypal and online shopping.

Fuck me.
Mood : aggravatedaggravated
27 November 2011 @ 10:05 pm

I get paid on friday, and I've already spent that pay cheque on random stuff from amazon/the internet.

I know I should be chagrined at my craziness, but I own Dollhouse and Angel now, plus I got four people done for Christmas gifts so I'm gonna just shrug and say money's just money after all.
Mood : amusedamused